I am hopeful that one day this week I will be able to write my resignation letter. I hope to be moving on into a new position...well old position new company. I'm hoping to get back into IT as a Service Desk Manager. It could mean a lot of good things - good for me, good for my family.
I hold no ill feelings for my current company - but I want to be back doing what I love to do, and honestly be paid for doing it...right now I'm doing a lot of IT duties that I'm in no way compensated for.
It's not a done deal getting the new job, but I'm hopeful and hope that putting the resignation letter out into the universe will lead to all good things in the near future.
:)
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Something Borrowed - Something New
I read a recent article on line about bloggers using their blogs to help them lose weight. So I'm going to borrow a page from them and try something new for me.
Most people I know understand that I am not happy with my weight, but they may not understand how I've struggled with it my entire life. At graduation I was about 30lbs overweight.
When I went to college I was very active - exercising at school and going out dancing every night. Small meals partially due to not spending the money on food, partially because I just didn't take the time and really didn't need to eat a lot of food. During that time I lost 35lbs - when I went home for my first visit after 3 months I had to buy all new clothes because nothing fit me anymore. I weighed 123lbs. And was really happy with my weight for the first time I can ever remember, I wore a size 8.
After I had my first baby I still was a size 10-12...still active and was still happy with my weight. I was still active and my weight stayed fairly steady- it went up a little but not so much I even really noticed it. But then I had 2 more babies in rapid succession, was no longer active and had to make sure I prepared full meals everyday so that Jeff and the kids were all fed. And if they were fed - so was I.
It's never been what I eat - or how much, as much as the fact I don't get enough exercise. I friend of mine who is also overweight went to lunch with me at a former job. Finally one day she looked at me and told me she was throwing me out of the Fat Ladies Club because I had no business being overweight with as little as I actually ate.
Now in the intrest of being honest with myself - and also anyone reading this - I have a terrible sweet tooth. I have convinced myself on more than one occasion that if I'm going to eat 250 calories - it may as well be a snickers bar instead of lunch...or a few cookies have as many calories as a sandwich and are tastier. Or like last night when instead of dinner - I talked Jeff into ice cream. (It was late and it was really yummy ice cream though).
So my 250lb self is now being totally honest and trying to reduce myself. I know it's not going to be easy - I've had way too much stress in my life lately and it's way to easy to just eat a cookie to deal with it instead of go for a walk. But I'm trying.
Most people I know understand that I am not happy with my weight, but they may not understand how I've struggled with it my entire life. At graduation I was about 30lbs overweight.
When I went to college I was very active - exercising at school and going out dancing every night. Small meals partially due to not spending the money on food, partially because I just didn't take the time and really didn't need to eat a lot of food. During that time I lost 35lbs - when I went home for my first visit after 3 months I had to buy all new clothes because nothing fit me anymore. I weighed 123lbs. And was really happy with my weight for the first time I can ever remember, I wore a size 8.
After I had my first baby I still was a size 10-12...still active and was still happy with my weight. I was still active and my weight stayed fairly steady- it went up a little but not so much I even really noticed it. But then I had 2 more babies in rapid succession, was no longer active and had to make sure I prepared full meals everyday so that Jeff and the kids were all fed. And if they were fed - so was I.
It's never been what I eat - or how much, as much as the fact I don't get enough exercise. I friend of mine who is also overweight went to lunch with me at a former job. Finally one day she looked at me and told me she was throwing me out of the Fat Ladies Club because I had no business being overweight with as little as I actually ate.
Now in the intrest of being honest with myself - and also anyone reading this - I have a terrible sweet tooth. I have convinced myself on more than one occasion that if I'm going to eat 250 calories - it may as well be a snickers bar instead of lunch...or a few cookies have as many calories as a sandwich and are tastier. Or like last night when instead of dinner - I talked Jeff into ice cream. (It was late and it was really yummy ice cream though).
So my 250lb self is now being totally honest and trying to reduce myself. I know it's not going to be easy - I've had way too much stress in my life lately and it's way to easy to just eat a cookie to deal with it instead of go for a walk. But I'm trying.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Psychedelic 45
Well yesterday was it – my 45th birthday.
I woke up early after a night of not so much sleep…tossed and turned much of the night. Jeff wished me a happy birthday, I said a quick prayer of thanks to my mom for my birth. And got out of bed to start the day.
My wonderful hubby had something planned for me which he had been teasing me about for weeks, but wouldn’t tell me what it was. So I decided to let it go and just get through the work day and find out that evening.
A woman I work with had her birthday the day before mine so our boss took the team out for lunch to celebrate. We went to First Watch and had a very yummy and somewhat healthy lunch. Although one of the others complained because too much healthy stuff was on the menu. OMG – she actually complained because while yeah they have a buffalo chicken wrap – they ruin it by using a whole wheat tortilla. She ordered the one burger on the menu and complained because of the whole wheat bun it was served on. Oh well you can’t please everyone. I had a wonderful omlette and really enjoyed the time. When we came back to work we had a huge chocolate chip cookie cake to celebrate.
Throughout the day I received many many texts and Facebook messages wishing me a Happy Birthday! It was really nice to realize how many wonderful friends I have. But as the day went on – I realized the Jeff had shared with several of my friends exactly what he had planned…and I know this will come as a shock but I’m a little bit of a control freak. So it was killing me that people knew what was going on and I didn’t. ARGH! I tweeted that Jeff was being mean to me, he saw it and told me to quit whining.
I left work an hour early in order to accommodate whatever Jeff had planned for the evening. He picked me up at work at 4PM and we took off for my magical birthday evening. We went to dinner at Brio where I had a great meal of Garanelli Carbonara, along with a glass of Chardonnay. YUM!!! After dinner we went to Bar Louie’s and met friends for happy hour, which was really fun (so was the shot of Patron Silver!). Then it was Sephora to get my free birthday gift and a couple of other things.
I was then informed that we were on a slight schedule – so it was off to the car and driving to downtown again. My birthday surprise was tickets to see Wonderland! I was really happy for this – I had wanted to see the show but didn’t think we would be able to go so I hadn’t mention it to Jeff. I’m glad he knows me so well. The show was GREAT!!!! It opens on Broadway this spring and I hope to get to see it there sometime too.
After the show was over we went to see Sprinkles – (her birthday is today btw!) she had made me a psychedelic birthday cake…it was sooooo good. We enjoyed some time with her – told her about the day and then realizing it was getting really late and I had to be up for work this morning, so it was off to home and straight to bed.
I woke up early after a night of not so much sleep…tossed and turned much of the night. Jeff wished me a happy birthday, I said a quick prayer of thanks to my mom for my birth. And got out of bed to start the day.
My wonderful hubby had something planned for me which he had been teasing me about for weeks, but wouldn’t tell me what it was. So I decided to let it go and just get through the work day and find out that evening.
A woman I work with had her birthday the day before mine so our boss took the team out for lunch to celebrate. We went to First Watch and had a very yummy and somewhat healthy lunch. Although one of the others complained because too much healthy stuff was on the menu. OMG – she actually complained because while yeah they have a buffalo chicken wrap – they ruin it by using a whole wheat tortilla. She ordered the one burger on the menu and complained because of the whole wheat bun it was served on. Oh well you can’t please everyone. I had a wonderful omlette and really enjoyed the time. When we came back to work we had a huge chocolate chip cookie cake to celebrate.
Throughout the day I received many many texts and Facebook messages wishing me a Happy Birthday! It was really nice to realize how many wonderful friends I have. But as the day went on – I realized the Jeff had shared with several of my friends exactly what he had planned…and I know this will come as a shock but I’m a little bit of a control freak. So it was killing me that people knew what was going on and I didn’t. ARGH! I tweeted that Jeff was being mean to me, he saw it and told me to quit whining.
I left work an hour early in order to accommodate whatever Jeff had planned for the evening. He picked me up at work at 4PM and we took off for my magical birthday evening. We went to dinner at Brio where I had a great meal of Garanelli Carbonara, along with a glass of Chardonnay. YUM!!! After dinner we went to Bar Louie’s and met friends for happy hour, which was really fun (so was the shot of Patron Silver!). Then it was Sephora to get my free birthday gift and a couple of other things.
I was then informed that we were on a slight schedule – so it was off to the car and driving to downtown again. My birthday surprise was tickets to see Wonderland! I was really happy for this – I had wanted to see the show but didn’t think we would be able to go so I hadn’t mention it to Jeff. I’m glad he knows me so well. The show was GREAT!!!! It opens on Broadway this spring and I hope to get to see it there sometime too.
After the show was over we went to see Sprinkles – (her birthday is today btw!) she had made me a psychedelic birthday cake…it was sooooo good. We enjoyed some time with her – told her about the day and then realizing it was getting really late and I had to be up for work this morning, so it was off to home and straight to bed.
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